I'm having all kinds of Gimli feelings all of a sudden, and I've decided that you all have to suffer through me jabbering about them. (And if you're at all moved to chat about them, I would love that.)
The feelings started because of an ongoing sense I've had in the personal little Tolkien 'verse/series of characterizations I write: this knowledge, fueled by nothing in particular, that Gimli and his best friends before LOTR start drifting apart shortly after he returns home from his quest. I know it's because he's become a different person than he used to be: more focused, more open-minded, a little wiser, and with broader priorities than he used to have. Oh, and an elf-lover, of course.
I'm not the first person to feel this way, obviously--
this wonderful fic does an excellent job of exploring the concept (and it has architect Gimli, a personal favorite of mine)-- but it made me start thinking: if the reason for the distance is that Gimli has changed, what
was he like before?
I didn't have the following in mind when I wrote my personal Gimli (though I suppose it still applies), so I'm not necessarily talking about him specifically, but I did want to throw it out there anyway. Fandom Gimli has come to be almost defiantly perfect, as a response to the horrible way he was butchered in the movies: intelligent, talented, wise, serious, diplomatic, etc. And while I certainly agree about his general magnificence, I started to wonder: in contrast to the idea, referenced in
this Tumblr post, that he was always that way-- what if pre-quest Gimli was a bit of a disaster?
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying he isn't still talented and intelligent and amazing-- but what if he was purposeless? We know he's well past a hundred, probably older than most dwarves are when they find their partner and/or their passion-- but what if Gimli has spent all these years just kind of floating? And his family despairs of him, because he has all this talent and so much potential that's just going to waste, but he hasn't found anything to direct it at?
Maybe he's a bit of a party boy-- oh, he's reliable and you know you can count on him in a pinch, but he spends his evenings out with friends instead of working on projects or getting his life together. He's got a brilliant mind that could do great things, but he hasn't made any effort to pursue them, and instead just volunteers for every mission or journey that will take him away from home. His parents ask him when he's going to give them grandchildren, but he prefers to sleep around and has shown no interest in settling down with anyone in particular.
He takes things seriously, of course-- the state of the world, the threat of Sauron-- but he won't do the same thing with his own
life, and it drives his parents to
distraction.He insists on coming along to Rivendell even as his parents ask hopefully if he's quite sure he doesn't have anything going on here that he'd rather stay for? And when he's chosen for the Fellowship, Gloin is proud, of course-- but he can't help fearing that this is just another of Gimli's tactics to procrastinate on starting his own life. And he can't help hoping that maybe this journey will awaken something in Gimli, that the exposure to new things will give him a sense of purpose, some kind of path. Maybe it's destiny, he thinks. Or something.
He's more right than he knows.